Fly out day. Ugh it's disgusting actually.
Not only am i cleaning up a weeks worth of sweeping the housework under the carpet, I'm dealing with the emotional aspect of being apart for another swing.
We should be used to it we've been at it long enough, the kids are old enough to understand where Daddy goes and what he does when he gets there.
It's a lifestyle that when done right can work really well. We seem to be a bit out of sync with it all at the moment. Budget falling apart, routines all over the place and I'm a routine kind of girl.
So we spend our week doing the school drop offs and pick ups. We have the odd coffee morning and we try to find things to fill our weekends up without spending to much money or getting in the way of every other "normal" families time with their husbands enjoying their weekends off.
Today after dropping Hubby off at the airport, the girls and I had our usual chat about how we will miss him and how sad we feel when he goes away and I had a little sniffle and surprised myself with how sad I felt and how I hadn't felt that way since we first started dating 8 years ago when I would be alone for 2 weeks while he was away for work.
I feel miserable and lonely, putting the kids to bed and feeling completely alone. Oh woe is me.
I guess we are all allowed to feel a little sorry for ourselves at times and I guess I should consider the other feelings I have.
1) I feel incredibly grateful. I can stay home and take care of our children and give them the time and love that they deserve. I have a wonderful husband who works hard to support us and get us the things we need, a place to live, food to eat clothes on our back.
2)Pride. I have 2 gorgeous little girls who are well adjusted and more often than not they are happy. They are healthy and smart and they love each other and us, their parents.
3)Anxiety. Am I doing this right? Am I raising my children the right way? Do I give them nutritious meals? Will they grow up and be successful?
Also, am I safe here? As a part time single Mum, are we safe staying here without a Daddy/ Husband to protect us? Is the fire alarm working? What do I do if our elderly fur baby decides it's time to cross the rainbow bridge?
Being away from the family has got to be harder for hubby than it is for us and can't be easy living so far away from anything, eating camp food that is neither exciting or tasty and just plain old missing your family, home, pets and your own bed.
Are we gonna be okay? Yeah. Are we gonna be happy about it? Nope. Are we used to it? Most of the time.
Fly in Fly out is not for everyone but we make it work most of the time and the rest of the time we just have to make sure we send extra texts, Facebook messages and phone calls.
Making sure we tell each other that I love and miss you is the easiest way to make everyone feel special and it's always heartwarming to hear that you are being thought about.
So if you are with your family today give them a hug, be thankful that you are all together and if you have anyone in your life who's family does FIFO, call them, text them or better yet give them a hug and tell them that they are doing a great job.
It's not easy but someone has to do it.
Until next time....
Stacey
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